BURN FAT! BURN!!!

This is actually what my body looks like, ugh

I just started yesterday to workout like crazy because I gained toooooooo much weight. I haven't bothered to weigh myself since I last checked I was 186lbs and that was months ago....I think I'm 194 or something, because my stomach have never poked out like that, luckily not that many people can notice I'm that fat since I'm 5'7 1/2.

Lauren Gottlieb; perfect ideal body (in my opinion)

So yesterday morning I did some yoga and a bit of cardio and last night I jogged on the treadmill for 2 miles. Now I have to deal with body aches and soreness, must push through the pain or I'll just stay fat :-(. My brother is a trainer-in-training and advised me to eat more fiber to quit the cravings, such as nuts, and I gotta say they worked! I took some with me to work and did not have the urge to snack on anything else also drinking coconut water satisfies my sweet tooth and fills me a bit.

To encourage myself, every Sunday I'm going to take a picture of myself in my bathing suit to see the progress. If anything, seeing my love handles and belly bulge in my two-piece will definitely motivate me!


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WHEN PARENTS SAY HURTFUL THINGS...SAY FUCK YOU! LOL SERIOUSLY

I just had a horrible argument with my dad, well it wasn't even an argument! more like a verbal fight lol smh. My dad is in his 60s, he's very ill and frail, extremely paranoid and neurotic, plus he's already showing signs of alzheimer. We're going through a crazy financial crisis right now and there're a lot of documents involved, he thinks he puts it in one place and when he goes to retrieve it and it's not there, he immediately blames me, my brother or mother. I've been puting up with this for a year now and it has taken a major toll on me contributing to constant fatigue, weight gain, migraine, etc. So tonight was no different, he said I'm messing with his mind, yada yada yada, but then he added "you fucking bitch!"....I flipped and cursed at my father for the very first time, repeatedly.

I never even cursed at my mother and don't even know if my father heard me cursed before, but I did and it actually felt good, not the cursing, but that I finally got to express how I really feel about him. Don't get me wrong, I love my dad to death, but he's so unlikable, especially when he got sick; he's extremely ungrateful to those who care for him, it's just sickening and my mother is such a strong woman I have the deepest admiration for her to be putting up with it like it's nothing. Anyways, usually when these heated arguments come up, I start yelling at him explaining everything I do for him and start balling, but I was actual very calm when he burst on me like that - obviously till he called me a bitch - and didn't even cry, not even tears of anger and I think I know why.

I've been reading Thich Nhat Hanh's "The Heart of Buddha's Teachings", and he says to acknowledge your emotions, don't ignore them, basically say hello lol. When these verbal fights erupted, obviously I didn't want to curse out my dad because he's my dad, I'm in his house and that's disrespectful, but I didn't want to be respectful this time so I yelled at him just like I would at anyone else he came at me like that for no good reason.

I'm not even heated right now, surprisingly enough I'm tranquil. So lesson of the day: when parents say hurtful things, say fuck you!! But ONLY if they're COMPLETELY in the wrong :-)


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SYLVIA...

"Dying
is an art, like everything else.
I do it exceptionally well.
I do it so it feels like hell.
I do it so it feels real.
I guess you could say I've a call."

Sylvia Plath was real deep, maybe even too deep for most. Isn't ironic how people always say that want the truth, but then when you give them the gritty raw truth, they ignore or deny it. People are funny.


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UPDATE!!

So from what I layed out to do on my days off from my last post, this is what I accomplished:

• I just need to read the latest blue blood book "Lost in Time", then finito!
• I have to complete unit 3 and 4 of level 1 in Rosetta Stone french
• I bough some cool shirts from forever 21 ( I need to start taking pics...); bought this Debbie Harry t-shirt, Jimi Hendrix t-shirt, and two cute sweaters
• I did not sleep! :-( 

I actually got a nice 11hr rest this past Wednesday, I never knew how sleep can be so awesome :-).

So right this very second I am devouring Ciao Bella toasted hazelnut gelato and catching up on my Vampire Diaries....I must go now, lol.

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FREEDOM!!!

So I'm finally off from work for the next 3 days (2 days with pay!) and it's so overdue. I didn't go to work for 4 days last weeks, but obviously because of the hurricane it was such a stressful ordeal so I definitely wasn't relaxing, I actually wanted to go to work to charge my phone hahaha. But anywho, I might not be able to enjoy these days off either because we're having some big storm again that will most likely bring snow, ain't that a bitch! So this is what I'm hoping to accomplish:

• Finishing up my books I took out from the library (the whole blue bloods series)
• Completing level 1 french on Rosetta Stone
• Buy something from Forever 21
• Sleep

I'm going to see also about taking pictures around my area from the hurricane damages also some nice autumn pictures if possible.

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SANDY...

My birthday cake! Freakin' delicious tiramisu cake

Well Sandy totally exceeded my expectations, I didn't think it was going to be that bad, jeesh! She totally ruined my Halloween, my birthday, and my family and I were left with no electricity for 4 days...lemme tell ya, no electricity for 4 days when the temperature is dropping drives you insane! Luckily for my family and I, we had a fireplace and had the privilege to warm ourselves before we went to bed. My heart really goes out to those with no electricity still, that totally blows. Though I'm pretty sure we will be out of electricity again around Wednesday because apparently another storm is coming and bringing some snow along with it. Isn't that just perfect :-)!!!  -_-

I never thought in a million years I would be going around my neighborhood to look for an outlet to charge my phone and during my hunt I ran into my bestie lol together we were so desperate to find an outlet we told I think at least 2 restaurants that we would buy food if they let us charge our phones hahaha ridiculous!

My birthday, which was the day after Halloween, wasn't a total fail; it was the same day I was on the hunt for some electricity and my friend and I  decided it would just be best to charge our phones at the local bar we always go to since we're cool with the bartender. That night was loco! I was so happy an old co-worker of mine was able to show up, together we were all lit, particularly me because I was not consistent at all with my drinks; I had a glass of pinot grigio, a white russian, flaming dr. pepper, then a shot of 151 with pineapple juice (delish!).

Ironically this whole hurricane experience embodies the title of my blog because there are obstacles in life that can't be prevented and to get through them you just have to make the best of it. Even though our lights were out, at least we had hot water and gas, there are some families whose homes are completely ruined which is why I wasn't so bummed about my situation.

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